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So, Iv previously blogged about the wife and Is recent fertility issues. We got news today of the biggest fertility issue we could possibly have. Our donor has fucking backed out. Now when we started with this guy he made a promise that even if e ha a girlfriend or what ever and children he would be willing to still donate. This has turned out to be nothing but a bloody lie. He text my wife thismornin saying that he could no longer donate as his girlfriend is pregnant and getting really in secure about it all. We have only been using this guy for 6 months and when we initially met he Didnt have a girlfriend. Mabey its just me looking too deeply into it but 6 months seems rather quick to be that settled. I feel live Wev been lied to the whole time. It’s just sic a fucking kick in the gut to be back to square one and looking for donors. I can’t even put my finger on how I feel. I go from being extremely pissed off and angry to feeling down about the whole situation. Don’t get me wrong, I’m happfor the both of them. I truly am but I feel like you just can’t drop people like he has done us. But then I know he is well within his righs al though he’s not on my Christmas card list at the min. My wife is absolutley devistated at the thought if having to search for another donor. She’s even contimplating IVF even thoug we can’t afford oil just so we don’t have to go through all that again. Still I’m sure wel get through it. I’m sorry about the crap spelling. I’m writing this on my phone. I just needed to get it off my chest.